Don’t rush into Relationships(Dating & Marriage)

Aunty karen shared with us 2 weeks ago the continuation of boys and girls. The best part that touches me is DON’T rush into relationships. That reminds me of Wilson’s message, we want instant noodles, instant this and instant that even instant relationships. When he said that I wonder when can we stop and examine ourselves. I wanted to cry but don’t know why. Also the current divorce rate is so high and people are not even bothering. why??? I wonder whats the reason behind it.You can find statistics in the internet. I have encounter tons of cases where people breakup the first five years of marriage and all of them comes from my seniors from ACU. That’s very embarrassing and some more we are believers. Even my cousin divorce and her main reason for it not ready to get married. One of my acu mates fiancé died after that she plan no to start dating till God gives her one. My foster family in the US who took care of me during summer divorce after 20+ yrs of marriage. That’s the main reason why I don’t want to rush or else I will face the same problem too and i may be worse. I had a classmate who broke up with her 1st bf and she cried the entire class period.

For christian who are single
Lets give ourselves to God
Wait for the right time for our life partner
Mix around and get to know others before deciding(enlarging your network)

5 weeks is over & back to BTS

Dang..Back to school.. and back to tons of homework and some ppl like kevin and stanford only sleep for 3 hrs people like me are way lucky sleep at 11... some ppl like mae lyn has to prepare for (graduating students)preaching…most of my friends went to taiwan for their holiday yuck..i didn’t go.. REGRET…today some are still mcc that they are still not awake in class. My lecturer’s and staff went to Taiwan for a conference. I got the form but refuse to go. Most of my friends were away for the 2nd term..

Today got to hear from mark & his group(mama maureen, papa roland and maurice and lukaz plus Anita). They had fun in Tebing tinggi, medan,INA(2 hours from medan city). It was fun they went to hokkien church started by a westerner who went to china to learn hokkien. Everyone had different task.

Random

Guess wat? i had bad news yesterday.My piano is moving to klang for good. I knew her for a very long time since age of 7. But i havent seen her since beg of 2010 till today. What am i going to do without her from next year? Its gonna be very hard.Its good to move on but its very hard to take it.I will remember her always but will try to go to kl to see her as often as i could. Still,i dont know where i will be next year.

4 more months i am graduating and i have tons to do. trying to finished all(2nd term homework) by sep 15th.i have tons that i am passionate about.but now what comes first?Still i have a passion to have an album.For many years i wanted to be a singer its because malaysia hasnt had an official one.Also i love indian children because first of all majority of the indians are still unsafe and most of them are living below the poverty level meaning dad and mom earning only 900 ringgit to support 7 ppl in the family. A no of indian children are in my church. I have seen improvement in them so far.Pristina for example eventhough she doesnt know the song but she learns to sing along with the congregation.Royson learn to lift up his hands to worship eventhough he is a non believer. Eventhough royson doesnt know my name he still called me a ka(tamil translation for older sister).
All of the children learn to say amen after the prayer.Still they are coming to church every sunday(not 1 time missed) except when they are sick.
They have been my inspiration for 1 yr since they came to this church.Why becuase eventhough the mom dont let them come but they bag their mom to send them to church.
If we didnt had the christmas dinner i dont think they will be in our midst already

It happen yes!!!

Last sunday it was fun after church.We had morning coffee and most of the sundays the adults do the work and majority of the youth is not doing much. Aunty penglim was not around. This time i make the youth wash the plates before doing anything else. Also i ask the boys in my youth group to wipe the table and put them back to the original place.
I wish she was not around more often than i can make the youth do the work instead of the older people
I told aunty lily that children this generation dont know how to do work and depended on kung yan(maid for eng translation)too much & if they dont have a maid they dont know how to do things. Your generation they take initiative, everything also do(fetch bro /sis to school, cook, work, catch wild animals slaughter and eat).
Still I really wish i could go back to the 60s or 70s where we are doing most of the housework instead of being idle.

Life is TOO short

Aih i tak tahu (malay translation for dunno)what to say.
Life is too short. believe me that you can go anytime & anywhere.My friends church member died when she is 11 of a terrible fall and she tried her very best to fight for her life but failed.Nobody expect her to be gone so fast.
I just cant understand why people are still hating each other eventhough they
are even from the same country or even they are christians. Cant we just love each other? Is that so hard?Eh come on lar.Does our God our father teach us to hate each other?No.I think this is getting into a serious issue and some dont even realize it. I think we should start loving each other even if we dont like it.
Its the same concept as our family if they are gone thats it lol.

friday

At last today is friday but the fact is that time flies way too fast.Mark and co are flying to INA for a week for mission trip.They already left. I had a wonderful week of class but too bad its over.I wish i should have gone on one misaion trip too. but I got next yr.I had a good but also week good and also bad. First i went for this class and its called story telling, such a good class and I laugh quite a bit. to be honest its the best class i ever had since i came to BTS in the beg of this year. I definately gonna missed it.The sad thing is I may graduate this year depends if i can get everything done by than.

Today mentoring group was good. We have a good discussion about the Issues that the churches in this world are facing and the BTS had. As i thought about it i thought it is true that christians have a high rate of pride.Also we(pastors who are preaching most of the sundays) are not honest with ourselves.Does God teach us to lie?No.Why cant we just be honest with ourselves and tell the truth?Is that so hard.I think thats already the trend that the churches has adopted for ages.And i think its time to start asking for forgiveness from God.Esp. for preaching on sunday. If you didnt prepare your message just tell them can we pray and thats it.My schoolmate tried that before and nobody make noise.

Thirdly, I've been depressed and emotional the whole month due to many reasons. one of them is that i will missed all my STCM friends already. they have been a blessing to me since the beg june when some of them had class with me together. its sad that they will be gone or they have gone till next year when I see them again.

Sunday

Today I woke up, first of all I saw the results. US 1-Ghana 2. I was so lost and speechless. Crap how am I going to explain to my friends in the US esp those who sees world cup. If they know I think they are going to be way heart broken. Yes they are. I am already heart broken esp if my dad is the coach. All my fav teams are out.WTF ish. going to have a bad time already in church. Worse still my Korean friend is my classmate. What I am going to tell him IF I met him in BTS on Tuesday. I just had to think hard. Maybe just write a note and say my apology to them I guess. Just realized that I have support USA in everything that’s in the Olympic games still they are the champion.

Korean people, you guys have done smtg great.Not All asian teams can be in the last 16. And not all can be in EPl which is the most competive league in the world.
US people, Sorry for your lost.

Now my heartache has began. eng vs germany. both are good but eng is still better in the sense that they(all but Upson) have played in EPl the hardest league all their lives SO this is ntg to them. And also its a great achievement to be in the last 16 and elected to be in the FWC after SO many years.Dont underestimate eng. one of them score thats it.

A lesson that the young people should know

1 term in BTS is gone. All i can say is i have heard most of my classmates testimony and i really thought about it till today. I just realized that God has been too good already. There are times i wanted to be wild but i just DONT feel like doing it.Why? beucase it will bear very bad consequences.I saw a video clip today and it reflects classmate who had a motorbike accident due to racing with her friends when she was 16 or 17 .SO does my other friend from china who had pornography and all the bad habits. After both became christian god change their lives completely.In the end i realized that i also had the similar thing when i was young and thats when i was not too serious about god. in other words i took God lightly and not seriously. When i left high school than i said sorry to god for all the wrong that i did.I thought about it again and again and i regret to say that it is actually the influence of my friends from high school and relatives who are non-believers.It brings me back to the quote from the daily bread that says its you that influence the world not the reverse. I am sad its the reverse today and I wish we should have influence the world for Jesus.
i really hope that you people will never follow doing it. Once you do it s just so hard to get out of it.

Friday

Drat! Half of the week is gone.

I am still stuck with assignments... and not progressing beyond. God, please help me!

*worried*. Should i be preparing for our church 15th anniv?Yes coz i owe my dad our 15th anniv video(95-2010) which reminds me that i need to continue doing and also after all the hardwork where did i first put it?hehe.

Anyway for the past few days i havent been well so i have been sleeping most of the afternoons. I was worried about my BI last paper rework grade but turn out that teacher havent receive yet so i owe teacher my paper seriously why sometimes my teacher receives my attachment and sometimes he dont so now i gotta find a solution. I am praying that all my work that i did will not go in vain. Tomorrow i still gotta lead worship for the youth and i wil be singing on sunday. Thankfully my assignments are half done and should be able finished it by end of the month.
I am trying my best to finished everything when school reopens or else there is going to be more to come.

Burn Out seriously

Today reach back at 5 plus to 6pm from CCC. I was like wanting to really sleep. Last year and this year we have the same number of people but this year we have 4 indian families(Anita,Parameswari,Vasanty and sundari's family)+ our own church member.Trust me this year we have the youngest organizing committee that you will ever find. Uncle bh and aunty kath didn’t really get involve but w.han, sam, me, chloe and Kevin. This year the scores for the games were not much difference at all. The games were all kevin's ideas none of which is Sam's(our best game master) hehehe.My team was the best as we went from 3rd to 1st prize.And all I can say is aunty Katherine and Joel and Louis was in my team. If Louis was not here I think we may have gotten the 2nd or 3rd.

At 5pm after the event was over I just realized How tired i was and also heng huo taking close to 100 pic for today. but sad of all them are in Uncle b.hong's laptop.

God really protected me

Sat night I had a fall.Still trying to figure out how it happen. i sat on the dinning chair trying seeing tv. my chair had been weld many times and i guess its time to change becuase i have been using the dining chair for 10-15 yrs.It could have been worse. worse come to worse may have a fractured or brokenhand.
Now i spain my hand and i may not be able to use the laptop for the time being.I sprain my ankle once and it took 2 months to recover.

Today

Class was good finished at 12pm. than spend time talking about our group project for NT survey 1 class which we have to present on the last day of the term. yesterday we were talking about it and winson was saying that he will not copy our idea

Contemplating on so much to do. i wanna die already lol. Everything needs to be done in a short time especially stuff for family day.
Argh my church family day is following sat. Oh no ezra is not be around that day. like that how? susah lar friend like that difficult lol.We need the youth to be there as field marshalls (group leaders) for the 4 different groups. I make a mistake should have ask the youth to check if they have school on that day.
This is killing me somemore have to come out with a proposal for the decorations for family day and the youth outing.

need to get back to work. got prayer meeting tonight.

Tuesday

Geez. I dislike falling asleep when I am not supposed to...slept till 5.30pm yesterday

My appetite has been all haywire after that.

Nice, cool, rainy day today... everything was good, except for the flying termites that found their way into my home. I don't think I was hospitable to them at all. guest what? my house was in darkness so didnt do much at all but seeing tv.

Gosh. I feel so lazy yes very lazy to do do homework. I need a break. but break from school work but not church work.hehe

Mondays

Walau the weekend is already over.
havent been sleeping well. lots of things to think about
so far the weekend is good i finished as much homework on saturday morning
crap i hope not to get sick with lots to do and have to prepare for my church family day which we havent really done much. my sunday was good i had church in the morning and had dinner with guest in the evening.

Tomomorrow is school i hope this week wont be too busy.

Mondays

It's back to Biblical Interpretation tomorrow. Thankfully i dont have to see dr lawson and it will be time to begin on the next assignment - to be handed up next week, Tuesday.Well i have started doing a bit of the first part.

I feel like so far, B.I is one of my least favorite subject. Seriously. Even though it's necessary...I will be honest here... >.< The most tiring and tedious subject EVER. (I like our lecturer though. He must be such a brilliant man...)

So far all my grades for BI is pretty good.Hope i can get a good grade for this course.

yesterday

Back to school. Handed up my Augustine research paper. Phew. I am finally done with most of the assignments from the 1st half of the term.

I've already done dr lawson's homework(DRAFT) but waiting for his reply if he wants me to change anything before I submit on Friday. I was shocked that my classmate got a 100.I remembered what dr lawson told us in class yesterday. He wants fewer see me's in the next project and also he ask us to give our best for the next projects.
i thought i will do way better since its just 4 verses and NOT the whole book. And i admit that i cant do work last minute or else i will forget to add something and will get a lower grade. Not only that i totally forgotten to write the stuff that he said in class when we had the workshop like what i did for the unit 3 project.

weekend

some of the highlights for the weekend
1.Went to Dr John Ong's mothers wake service on friday
2.Spend the entire day of sat re-doing church history homework
3. Eat lunch(roti canai and curry) with church members
4. Had meeting for family day for 30 min than jam session for the worship team.

Finishing my Biblical Interpretation homework which is due friday in class but the draft is due the latest by tuesday so that i can let teacher check earlier if there is any changes to be made.
Already done church history homework.
Sad that this week is the last week where i have 1 1/2 days
Counting the days till 1st term break which is on the 15/5 and also the church family day.

Biblical Background Assignments half completed!!

Ahh bliss flows through my heart

will get my assignments printed out so that i can submit to Dr Sunny the following week.After that, it is (hopefully) bye-bye to biblical background.

(This has been a truly packed term...I am so glad for the mid-term break this week.but how sad its going by very fast.)

Looking forward to do the other half of the biblical background assignment which i will be doing tonight.

I feel a little reluctant to return to school next week

Answer the question honestly

1.What was the last thing you put in your mouth?
meat and vege

2.Name one person you like the most
my pet

3.Can you play guitar?
No

4. Name your fav food?
--depends on my mood

5.How late did you stay up last night and why?
12 am to finish up assignments

6.If you could move somewhere else, would you?
US or UK..malaysia is good in some sense on the other hand things are expensive

7. Ever been kissed under fireworks?
--never

8.Which of your friends lives closest to you?
i dont have any

9.Are you going to study again after your grad dip?
yes but get a few years working experience first

10.how bad do you want to go doulos
very bad

11. When was the last time you cried really hard and why?
last week becuase my mom dont let me join activities this year

12.Name events you really wanna join next year in BTS?
Mission trip, item for easter service

13.One reason that you are upset about?
cant join the item for easter service at bts

14.Was yesterday better than today?
Yes.

15.Can you live a day without TV?
no coz i see tv everyday

16.one piece of advice that your mom gave you?
--find a job and take care of yourself

17. Do you think relationships are ever really worth it?
--- Of course! We are relational beings (quote Dr. Sunny)... :P

18. Are you a bad influence?
--- I hope that filling in this questionnaire doesn't count as being bad influence!!! :D

19. Night out or night in?
--- depends on my mood.

20. What items could you not go without during the day?
--- my handphone...

21. Who was the last person you visited in the hospital?
--- dont have anybut planning to visit mr chow

22. What does the last text message in your inbox say?
---

23. How do you feel about your life right now?
--- I am really blessed to be born for a time such as this... :D

24. Do you hate anyone?
--- hate is a strong word...I don't think I hate anyone. Let's just say that I am trying my hardest to love some people...

25. If we were to look in your face book inbox, what would we find?
--- messages...from friends...

26. Say you were given a drug test right now, would you pass?
--- of course...

27. Has anyone ever called you perfect before?
--- cant remember

28. What song is stuck in your head?
---Christian Songs ah my favourites

29. Someone knocks on your window at 2:00 a.m., who do you want it to be?
--- my sister, mei huey

30.Wanna have grandkids before you’re 50?
--- Erm, looking at my age now...and I am not yet married... I don't know it that would be ever possible

31. Name something you have to do tomorrow?
--- finish up my biblical assignments

32. Do you think too much or too little?
--- TOO MUCH. Way, way too much.

33. Do you smile a lot?
---not really

34. How many hours a day do you spend on the computer?
--- dunno... countless...

35. If you could be anyone else for a day, who would you be?
--- I don't know... a footballer maybe or even a singer like kelly clarkson

36. Facebook or Twitter?
--- Facebook

37. Chicken or Beef?
--- chicken coz too much beef i have allergy

38. Mac or PC?
--- anyone will do...

39. Have you ever punched anyone in the face?
--- No

40. Have you ever been punched in the face?
--- never punched... but slapped, yes :)

friday

Church history paper is over. Thank God! MCQs were great. Essays... hmm, a little bit harder. I didn't write too good an essay on the reasons for questions of faith something like that.
the essays for the first test was a nightmare coz it was very hard and so does the MCQ.
all in all i think i did great.

Now is weekend stuff(which i am waiting for) and intro to the bible homework etc.

Not to say that our mentoring group was good.We talk about foundation and should the youth and kids should have their own seperate worship or join together. not forgetting we also review what we have learned so far for the past 2 months.

Glad we have one week break , can wake up later but have to do assignments

Saturday

Guess what? i went for lunch with my friends from BTS yesterday. it was fun. took a lot of pictures but not posted on facebook yet
i am so blessed to have good friends

My youth has started our youth item practice in the afternoon. its going very well.
each part the youth gets to sing. one part we are asking our new friend. if she cant sing than we need to see who can sing.the youth commitee are playing the instruments.

What a blessing

Its been 2 months plus since I came to BTS. i met this guys by the name of Peter Tan. i called him uncle Peter. I knew him since the first day I’ve been to bts. We had the same class since than, because we were in the same program . He is such a smart guy. Most of the quizzes he got at least 18 to 20. Yesterday I met him after my community duty. Saw him doing homework. Guest what he has finished dr Lawson’s homework and half of KC’s homework.omg he is so fast. This reminds me i need to start with Dr Lawson's homework. During our last day of class we ask him to study with me and my classmate.
All in all i can say that its a blessing to know him as a friend and a brother in christ.

I am so glad to know you.All the best in your studies

in the evening of chinese new year

We manage to do some stuff during the first day(1st day of CNY).

I guess the highlights of the day was I was in my aunts house yesterday. After that we went for dinner at this place called kampung nelayan in bukit padang near Luyang.thats the place where all the tourist goes each year and see the malaysian cultural show and other show. my cousins and i had a photo with the dancers. than i went to my last aunty's place. we didnt have karaoke as the children was busy playing and it was so noisy.
FYI i have been eating all day of yesterday

I should have do my homework but manage to get some done. didnt do any exercise at all.but I just didn't feel like it. I have put tons of weight i guess.

Did i mention?Returning to Penang later today. felt that the trip was too short as i havent seen my friends for ages.Plan to come at least a week the next trip.

chinese new year eve

Woke up early yesterday and started getting ready to go to my uncle's place. everyone rush to the bathroom to bath and my aunt went to get the cake for the party.
it was fun as we cousins help to do the fatt choy dish for dinner.
Reunion at tai kau's house(my mom's eldest brother).Very yeat nao. We have a nice meal which my uncle cooked and also celebrated my friends birthday. It was a bit boring as not many of my relatives came because they have guest in the house. so everyone did their own stuff. my mom and her sisters talk and while my cousins and i watch a movie and my dad talk with one of his in laws.

I havent seen my cousins in 7 yrs since i left for the US to study. all my cousins have grown up and now starting dating. some kept their dating secret. my family is not all are buddhist.some are free thinker, amist,christian, catholic and Islam.
I have 9 married cousins and more to come. my grand parents pictures are in the house. Wish they were here but they are gone too early.for those who havent been to sabah there is not many buddhist temples around especially in the village areas(beufort,papar etc)mostly catholic churches. its interesting that sabah's indian population is very little.

EE Ah fungs children came today for cny actual day and truely i cant recognized them as the older 3 are married and have kids while the younger one is 19 and the youngest one is already 11.

ok since i came back from US i have grown fatter especially chinese new year. my mom's family fed me with over dose of food an mostly is homecook and also oranges and cookies.

Things to thank god for

1.Thank god for the growth in the youth and the kids ministry in the church.

2.My pastor's son(the church i attended in the US) had a sucessful operation.

3.My friend shannon is improving but still in the hospital with brain aneurysm

4.Wen Han the first person in the youth group in my church to get baptised on EASTER sunday. Have been praying for him for a long time.praying that the entire youth group will get baptized.

5.SACC is improving, give time

6.The opportunity to study and equipped myself

7.Encuoraging friends in the seminary

8.Sustaining my mom's health for so many years

Wanna cry but dont know why

Lonliness is not the great time as this.

On top of them my schoolmate Shannon who is in the US had brain aneurysm and my pastors son (the church i attended in the US) went for an apendicitis operation.He had a successful one which i am happy about.

I cant believe one month is gone and i am going back to sabah on friday the 12/2/10At least trying to get things done before CNY

One of the blessings
First of all thank god for giving us rain. it hasnt been raining for a while. yesterday it also rain.At least i can sleep better and its not so hot.

Second thing is that my throat is already better and its not painful anymore. so now get to sing in church on sunday.

Update on blog

Sorry for not updating my blog. Have been busy lately. Things are going good. Looking forward to going back to sabah. I haven’t been back since 03 that’s the last time I saw my aunt before she is gone. Definitely and honestly I can say that I will have absolutely no time for homework. So now I am sacrificing tv for homework. Things in sacc are going well. We have 3 x the number for our kids and all have language problems majority speaks tamil or malay. And I can say that I am trying my very best to help them. All are very poor in their studies and they are the 10th from the bottom or something. Why? One reason is their place is too small so no place to study and also they are poor people so no money for tuition. somemore don’t have money to go to kindy thats why we are supporting 2 children. The biggest problem is language. They dont speak english at all. I pity one of the family that is part of my church as the dad have to buy a packet of rice for 10 people to eat.

So guys lets be thankful for what we have.There are people out there even in Penang who have not much to eat.

My BTS journey

Yesterday I was officially a seminary student. yay thank god for my interview. That’s the best choice I have made. I wanted to study last year but things didn’t go right. I still have the next few years to go so I will give my 100% especially for the first 6 months that I am there. I am thanking god for good friends and teachers that can encourage me.
I am taking two classes this term and i am trying my hardest to finished my homework by early Feb so that i can enjoy my CNY break.I bet during CNY i will absolutely have NO time to do homework.

Happy New Year 2010

Aih so fast is already 2010. my goodness. Before you know it its half a year gone. I will be very busy this whole year with 3 jobs: a student,a caretaker and a working lady. i have so much line up for this year. some think church work is very easy and no stress. You are very wrong.its the hardest of them all becuase you have to worry about who to invite to your events and publicity and spending money for all the misc stuff.

What i will be doing in 1st half of 2010

1)Classes at the seminary & homework
2)Coloring competition in march and story telling in june
3)Preparing for easter items youth and adults
4)Youth stuff 1 year practicum
5) workers retreat
6)slide packages-15th anniversary etc
7)alpha course and marriage course
and tons more